Category Archives: infidelity

…and the rollercoaster

It’s funny. I always think positively, and then I feel like I’ve been slammed with depression. It’s frustrating and exhausting. Do you feel like you are constantly having crazy mood changes? I feel like I can’t even get a handle … Continue reading

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Hope

Lately, I’ve been lucky enough to be surrounded by women helping other women, and it is such an amazing experience. There is positive energy, and each one is lifting someone up. Most of the time, they just met the other, … Continue reading

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Who Am I?

Who am I? This is something I have really been wondering over the last four years. It is interesting how we see ourselves–how we build our identity. For many years, I was a teacher. I love teaching. However, I gave … Continue reading

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Judgment

Before D-day, I rarely paid attention to the judgments of others. Sure, things stung, but over time, I realized their judgments were based on their issues, and it was easier to move through the world. Now, I feel every judgment … Continue reading

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Today is Four Years

Today makes four years since my life has been completely changed. It’s funny. People will say, “Aren’t you glad you know? Isn’t it the best to know the truth of your life?” Well, yes…and no. Yes…because my GOD, how could … Continue reading

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When Does it Get Better?

The fact that I’m asking this almost four years from D-day is scary to me.  I’m tired.  I’m so lonely and isolated.  I do not see a way out, and I certainly don’t see it getting better. Of course, now … Continue reading

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Friends or Acquaintances?

Lately, I’ve been wondering a lot about those I have considered to be friends. Since I had several very difficult life events occur (2nd dday, head-on car collision, loss of career), I thought that my past colleagues would reach out … Continue reading

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I think maybe it’s time to stop blogging

Well, it seems that so much has happened since my last post, and I definitely don’t feel as if I’m pulling myself up.  You see, I had a second dday, and that occurred after a cross country move, giving up … Continue reading

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Loneliness

I have always been comfortable being alone.  I wake up early to have time on my own to write, read something positive, or meditate.  I retreat to my office for lunch to have time to regroup and process my morning.  … Continue reading

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Flat.

I am feeling flat lately. Before dday: I felt comfortable, relatively happy in my life and trusted that even though we were incredibly busy with three kids (two babies), that as time moved on and that season of my life … Continue reading

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