I am just taking a minute to check in, as it has been longer than I intended, and I wanted to update.
Things have been going relatively the same for a few weeks. I have sadness and am riding the roller coaster of emotions, but I am just very busy with the kids and with the stresses of daily life. I do still feel resentment and have noticed it is peeking in when I am not expecting it.
I have read others’ posts on forgiveness and have felt a bit of anger about the topic. I am clearly not ready to even think about it, even though I know that it would honestly be to free myself. I know that may be the ultimate goal, but I don’t see a reason to focus on it or stress about it, and it frustrates me when it is brought up. I kind of feel like it will happen on its own over time.
My work situation continues to add more stress than I even want to write about. I feel so frustrated seeing things that others refuse to acknowledge or improve and when people lack self-awareness, it is almost like it triggers me and reminds me of all of this crap. I wish that work was a safer place, but it definitely is not.